People called me “a child without mother,” instead of my name. Some of my friends’ mothers told their children even in my presence, “Do not hang out with a motherless child.” I felt sad, but I did not miss my mom whom I had never seen.
Only after I became a mother of a child did I feel a big hole in my heart. I missed my mother who would have told me that I did a great job giving birth, and who would have hugged my child, saying, “How cute and lovely!”
Probably because of that, I became a child of Heavenly Mother as soon as I heard about Heavenly Mother at the World Mission Society Church of God (WMSCOG). My husband, who hesitated to go to the Church of God (WMSCOG) together with me at first, willingly received the truth when I said to him, “I wish all my family to go to the kingdom of heaven together.”
By the grace of God, I started my life of faith without any difficulties. Somehow, however, I gradually became lazy. I preferred to rest at home or meet my friends than to go to Church. Naturally, the words of the Bible slipped away from my mind just like the tide ebbs, as time went by.
One day, my baby’s face turned pale and he could hardly breathe. The doctor said that my child needed to have emergency surgery because he had a heart disorder. As the doctor said that he would have to stick a needle into my baby’s heart and that the surgery could put his life in danger; it felt like someone had ripped my heart out of my chest. I heard the yelling of my baby outside of the emergency room. I called out to Heavenly Mother so many times in my mind.
‘Heavenly Mother, please . . . Please save my baby! Mother, please . . .’
A minute seemed like a year. The operation was over, and my baby was moved from the intensive care unit to the general ward in just a day; he showed remarkable recovery. At that time, I had nothing to say but “Thank You, Mother!”
When my child became ill, my heart was so torn. How much more heartbroken Heavenly Mother must have been when my soul was dying! Heavenly Mother feels the happiest when a child of Hers is found. However, She is very anxious and distressed until the child stands firm in faith, and She also feels so heartbroken while concealing Her pain over Her children who have not yet been found.
Now I strengthen my weak faith, pluck up my courage, and take a step deeper into the gospel. Although I am still lacking in many ways, I want to find my lost heavenly family members to please Heavenly Mother, praying hard and studying the words of the Bible diligently while always thinking of Heavenly Mother who sheds tears over Her lost children.
Heavenly Mother, You comforted me in all my troubles. However, I turned my eyes to the world, not knowing Your love and Your pain behind the scenes. Please forgive me! These words I am now going to say may not be enough to express my feelings for You, but I want to say, “Mother, thank You, and I love You!”