My father always asks the same thing whenever he calls me. Although I am not a child anymore, he always asks me if I eat meals regularly or if I have any problem.
It has already been three years since I lived apart from my family because of my studies. When I went to school in Seoul, I visited my family every other month, but since I came to Germany, I haven’t been able to see my parents for more than a year. In the meantime, my family moved to the United States because of my father’s long business trip.
I missed my family so much, and fortunately I had an opportunity to visit my parents in the USA.
“Come quickly. I’ll prepare lots of delicious food for you!”
My mother said this over the phone the day before my departure. Her voice was full of excitement. I was also very excited.
I arrived safely at an airport in the Netherlands, where I had to transfer to another plane. Now, I only had to board the flight to USA, so I would be able to see my parents whom I missed so much. However, something unexpected happened. I was unable to board the plane to America even though it was right in front of me. The reason why I was not allowed to board was because I had not prepared all the necessary documents to enter the United States.
I was worried because I did not know what to do at the strange airport where I could not make myself understood, but more than that I felt anxious about my parents because they would be very sad to hear about this.
I phoned my parents with a heavy heart. After hearing the whole story, my father did not say anything for a while probably because he was in shock. Breaking the silence, my father told me in a sad voice.
“You should have prepared more carefully. You’re almost here . . . You really can’t come home?”
As soon as I hung up the phone, I burst into tears. I was so heartbroken at the fact that I disappointed my father who had been eagerly looking forward to seeing her daughter.
‘He was so delighted to hear that I would visit him . . .’
When I wept quietly while sitting in a corner of the airport, I was reminded of someone else—our Heavenly Father who is eagerly waiting for us, His children, to come back to heaven, our spiritual home. Then I cried a river. If I am in right front of heaven’s gate but unable to enter it because I am not fully prepared, how sad and heartbroken Heavenly Father will be!
I don’t want to repeat the same folly. I will fully prepare everything needed to enter the kingdom of heaven—sacrifice, humility, love, patience and much more, so that I will not disappoint Heavenly Father when I go through immigration to the kingdom of heaven. I am earnestly looking forward to the day when I enter the kingdom of heaven safely and reunite with my Father whom I miss so much.
G.H. from Hamburg, Germany