When I was a child, I made a lot of goals for my future, but it was uncertain that I was able to continue my studies; because my father’s income was not enough to support the cost of my studies. My mother, who had only taken care of the housework until then, decided to work. She sold various products like clothes or bags, and also sold food, visiting houses. Thanks to my mother’s help, I was able to continue my studies.
But when I became a juvenile, I began to neglect my studies. I even skipped some classes to spend time with my friends. It became worse and worse. In order not to feel guilty, I used to think, ‘It’s going to be just this time. No more!’ But then as time passed, I didn’t even feel guilty anymore.
‘I’m young. I have a right to have a little fun. And I’m not doing anything bad.’
One day, I went to my friend’s house, skipping a class. I got to his house and was about to call his name. However, then I heard a familiar voice. It was my mother. I quickly hid myself in embarrassment so that she wouldn’t know that I had skipped my class. Then I watched her. She was selling some products at the door of a house, explaining how good they were for health. However, the house owner said that he was not interested and that he didn’t have time. It was my first time to see her selling products. She had always been a quiet person, but she was being humiliated like that so that I could study!
Up until that day, I had never thought about how hard it must have been for her to walk all day and visit every house, trying to sell things. She must have been rejected and treated bad so many times. While my mother was suffering like that for the future of her youngest son, I was only thinking about how to have more fun with my friends. It felt like I was the worst son in the world.
On that day, I pondered upon what I had taken so lightly. I regretted having thought about only myself, and I began to make a great effort to study hard. Then my grades got better and better. My mother worked more. She learned physical therapy and worked in the evening as well. I always accompanied her who went out to work at night, and I felt happy that I could help her a little bit.
When I learned about Heavenly Mother, I was able to understand the teachings of the Bible, “What is on the earth is a copy and shadow of what is in heaven.” The love I felt from my physical mother was a shadow of the indescribable and infinite love of Heavenly Mother.
Heavenly Mother has been walking alone, being humiliated, despised and afflicted for so long only for the safety and future of my soul. I feel so bad whenever I find myself making the same mistake in my spiritual life as an immature child. From now on, I will walk with Heavenly Mother all day and give delight to Her.
J. C. from Peru