I always used to do things in an easy-going way.
Because of my easy-going personality, I did not feel so passionate about anything or put a lot of effort into it, and even when something attracted my attention, I soon lost interest in it. After I got married and had a baby, I lived my life like any other married woman. Then one day, I was led to the World Mission Society Church of God by one of my neighbors in the same apartment building. It was three years after I heard the truth for the first time from my aunts; at that time, I wasn’t interested in the truth at all, feeling as if I was listening to somebody else’s story. However, as I studied the Word again, I began to attend Church.
After I gave birth to my second child, I moved to another place. As my new place was far from the Church of God, my faith wavered for a little while. However, the members did not give up on me; they continuously comforted me and helped me out. Through their sincere love and care, I was able to pull myself together and come back to Zion. When I returned to Zion (WMSCOG), there were many changes for the members; a sister, who had received the truth later than me, was already strong in faith as an evangelist, and another sister whose faith used to be like mine was emitting the fragrance of Zion by bearing fruit. I really regretted the time I had wasted.
I also wanted to have such great faith. So I continuously asked God for the Holy Spirit, but in actuality I didn’t understand with my heart what the Holy Spirit really meant. This made me feel so frustrated, and I prayed to God like a whining child. Then one day, when I was reading the Bible, I was able to understand the Bible clearly as if I was wearing reading glasses, and I was also able to read the Truth Books without difficulty, which I used to find hard to understand before.
Acts 2:33 “Exalted to the right hand of God, he has received from the Father the promised Holy Spirit and has poured out what you now see and hear”
This verse was deeply engraved on my heart. My understanding did not come from my wisdom, but it was the power of God and the work of the Holy Spirit. Then I realized how arrogant I was to think that I had understood the truth thanks to my wisdom. Although I was so arrogant, the members always praised me and served me; they all looked like angels. They tried to follow the will of God the Mother fully, humbling themselves before God, so they were all spiritually great seniors for me.
When I was a student, I once went to a harmonica jazz concert. The performer went on the stage with big, dark sunglasses in the dark concert hall. He was a musician blind from birth. Although he could not see anything, he put his whole heart and soul into the performance. Then the audience gave him a big round of applause.
I think I am like the musician who performed at the concert that day. In the invisible world, Elohim God is paying attention to my every move and word and is encouraging me with a big round of applause. Now I will preach the love of God, who has sacrificed for me, to many people, so I can move God.
SH Ha from Korea